Monday, October 31, 2011

Post-Post week 10--Carbon problem/Community solutions

Post-Post week 10—calculating my carbon footprint
Okay, so I have known I’ve been part of the carbon pollution problem, but these survey/math exercises showed me in a stunning way how much I’m been wounding the earth I say I love. I took the Nature Conservancy survey and the totals were shocking.
Results for CO2 were calculated for one year--

--Home energy total 14 tons of CO2            (42% above average)

--Driving and flying total 7.1 tons of CO2    (38% below average)

--Food and Diet total 3.4 tons of CO2          ( 4% below average)

--Buying and waste total .9 tons of CO2      (21% below average)

Next, I took the water use survey, and these results were another bummer. I personally use 133 gallons of water daily-ugh! (133 X 365days =  48,545 gallons yearly)

By now I was expecting bad news, but my contribution of 3, 643 tons of solid waste was still a jolt—almost 4,000 tons—good grief!

Before I took these surveys, I would have said I was doing pretty well.  Obviously, not!

The last part of our instructions asked me to multiply my totals with larger groups.  I multiplied my carbon total for year by 400,000, which is approximately how many folks live in the Peace River Watershed. The total for one year came out to be 51,200,000 tons of CO2.  This is mind blowing!

I spent some time visiting the world sites, but I was confused about how to compare my totals to world totals.  What I do understand is that the United States uses more than its share of resources and that it (and I mean me, too) is a significant polluter. This has to change!

Today it's raining in my yard. I don’t have an official rain barrel, but I put out a plastic garbage container along with a plastic bucket and a watering pitcher to catch my first ever water to use for outside needs. One of my personal proverbs says—Be part of the solution, not part of the problem.  This has mostly meant relationally, but I'm now including it to mean environmentally.  

I drove over to USF to be with Cristin last Friday. (I felt guilty about the gas I was using.)  We went out to dinner at a cool vegan restaurant, The Loving Hut. The big screen TV was running some sort of Asian channel that was pushing the importance of vegan foods because they were not only good for people but they were good for the environment. We accept that fact, and that is one of the reasons we chose that restaurant, but Cristin confessed it was hard to sustain wise choices without a supportive community. This is a genuine concern, and my prayer is that we can all find communities (family, friends, work, church, and/or city) that creatively and consciously seek to cooperate with God’s grace in order to be part of the solution, not so much part of the problem.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Pre-Post week 10

Responding to preface and chapter 1 in Eaarth and video "The Story of Stuff."

I’m aching with all this hard to absorb news of my current reality, but Eaarth is full of important facts I need to remember. The Arctic ice cap and inland glaciers are melting. The oceans are warmer, distinctly more acid and their level is rising. The rain forest of the Amazon is drying, and the great boreal forest of North America is dying, and oil in the earth is more empty than full. This isn’t new information for me, but reading so much at one time makes me feel it more.  But feeling is probably part of my problem. My earth is dramatically different, yet my life still feels so normal. I have plenty of food, clean water still comes out of my faucet, and my yard isn’t dust. I can still afford gas in my car, (I’m trying hard to be wiser with my driving). The impact of how bad things really are hasn’t impacted my daily life, although I can see it coming.

My “seeing” was helped as I watched the video “The Story of Stuff.”  The simple illustrations gave me a visual anchor. And the commentary filled in vital information. Extraction means using finite natural resources, which cause irreparable damage to my world. During production we regularly produce 4 billion pounds of toxic waste. Distribution doesn’t completely pay expenses (particularly fair wages and quality health care). Consumption (with the pulsing golden arrow) hit the hardest—we only use 1% of our stuff 6 months after purchasing it. Gross! During disposal all the toxins we use in production wind up in a landfill or burned up, which only spreads the poison.

Good grief this is all horrible news!  Talk about needing to hold the pain of the world--it is excruciating! So I’m crying to God to help me bare it.  But somehow I’m encouraged that we are engaging this material as a class. We have a chance to talk and support one another in coming to grips with the agony that is a different future than we expected or wanted.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Post-Post week 9--Jesus said, "Come along and see for yourself."

John 1:39:  Jesus said, “Come along and see for yourself.

Psalm 34: Open your mouth and taste, open your eyes and see— how good God is. Blessed are you who run to him.

If there is anything I’ve learned from reading For the Beauty of the Earth it’s that I’m not at the center of things, and I’m certainly not in control. Annie Dillard’s biting quote makes this stunningly important point, “…(at church) we should all be wearing crash helmets. Ushers should issue life preservers and signal flares…the waking god may draw us out to where we can never return.” Dillard's words have a forbidding air. God isn’t tame. He’s wild and unpredictable. This needs to be noted and remembered. But I know I didn’t sign up for this Christian life because I was afraid or wanted to win arguments (although I appreciate and value clear, strong reasoning). I joined the family of God because I was drawn by God’s love. I saw God’s love in people I could hang out with, just like Andrew did with Jesus when he asked, "Teacher, where are you staying?" Jesus replied, "Come along and see for yourself." And Andrew ended up spending the day with Jesus. In fact, the first thing Andrew did after finding where Jesus lived was find his own brother, Simon, telling him, "We've found the Messiah.” He immediately led him to Jesus. And we know how that connection ends: Simon is renamed Peter and becomes a rock Jesus can build on.

That’s what I call a solid foundation, but God’s been in the drawing-us-to-him business for a very long time. For example, Psalm 34 directs me to open my mouth and taste, open my eyes and see how good God is. This is where His love tugs at me in a different way, and I’m happy to spend time appreciating God in the taste of rain; ripe, red strawberries fat with rain and sun; His rainbow over the soaked strawberry field and over the wet workers in the strawberry field; and God’s warm kiss on my lips when I say his name with thanksgiving in my heart for it all.  
There is a lot of value in recognizing that God is wild and unpredictable. But it is crucial to also remember that God is Love.  It’s a complex combination, but I’m not confused. “Come along and see,” he says. I’m full of hope and running toward him open, open, open.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Pre-Post week 9--reflecting on "Apocalyptic Sustainability"

Robby’s paper “Apocalyptic Sustainability: The Future of Pentecostal Ecology” was really interesting. Desmond Tutu’s quote was a great hook—truthful, helpful, hopeful. He said, “[W]e are all part of the problem (ecological crisis)…we are also part of the solution… and our Biblical heritage” is a resource that can help us think and act rightly. 

Through a variety of class readings I’ve happily adjusted to hearing alternative interpretations of familiar Biblical texts in support of ecological concerns. Genesis 1:28 isn’t about control, but rather about service and care. And the reference to Psalm 72 where the king exercises justice is another good reminder about the correct use of dominion. Even Mark 10:45 reiterates the proper understanding of Biblical leadership—servanthood not domination. I appreciate one more clear critique of Lynn White’s interpretations as too selective and unrealistic as well as Robby’s poignant insight that we “need to confess our sin of failing to care for the rest of creation.”
Robby's recounting of the Hasidic tale is a great story that catches the complexity of truth--“We need a coat with two pockets. In one pocket there is dust, and in the other pocket there is gold. We need a coat with two pockets to remind us who we are.” Not either/or, but both. This story  vividly speaks of balance and is a fitting introduction to explaining the differing views about the end times and the kingdom of God.
1) Apocalyptic eschatology—an abrupt end with radical divine intervention
2) Inaugurated eschatology—kingdom is already present and not yet consummated
3) Realized eschatology—kingdom fully present now in words and deeds, ours and Jesus’s
I’m familiar with # 1, which Robby noted is popular with poor people. I wonder if that is because they see the present as pretty hopeless and annihilating things would be some sort of twisted justice as well as an instant rescue for themselves.
I’m familiar with #3, which Robby stated is popular with the middle class and upwardly mobile folks. I wonder if that is because it fits so well with their materialist desires and drives.
So, it isn't a surprise that so many folks are theological schizophrenics.
Inaugurated eschatology, located between two extremes, is the one that appeals to me the most.  But it is not what I’ve not heard preached from any pulpit. Why? Robby wrote, Over the last few decades [underline mine], Pentecostal scholars have opted for neither the apocalyptic nor the realized eschatology and instead have advocated for 'already/not yet' eschatology.” What makes scholarship so slow to seep into the pulpit?
Robby clearly explained inaugurated eschatology—“…the kingdom of God is present on earth, introduced by the words of Jesus, “The time is fulfilled.'” Then Robby said [in fresh wording  that made me smile] “…contrary to popular opinion, the final vision of Revelation does not contain an image of Christians being resurrected and going off to the wild blue yonder, but rather of the kingdom of God coming down to earth (i.e., the descent of the New Jerusalem)." The most useful description appeared in his illustration of the Lord's Prayer.  It is in praying these words that we can participate in both aspects of “already/not yet”: “thy kingdom come”—praying for the future--and  “thy will be done”—praying for the present.
The whole problematic 2 Peter 3:10-13 discussion was professional, thorough, but a bit too technical. Although I can agree to it when I’m reading it, I don’t think I can repeat it.
Robby’s concluding points are crucial: Creation is good. We need to participate in the whole life of the church—service and sacraments—knowing our hope is the coming of God.  Transforming power comes from God. Apocalypse means unveiling or revelation. Christian apocalyptic texts have much to do with discerning the spiritual significance of the present, not predicting the future. And perhaps most importantly of all: As a consequence of reading and connecting with these ideas, we are better able to  contribute appropriate responses to the ecological crisis, which is also a social and economic crisis, because we are moving in God’s spirit working through and in our strong Biblical heritage.

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Post-Post week 8--Mystery, Miracle, Gift

I loved our textbook reading from Genesis. I read it aloud to myself listening deeply-- “God spoke, and it was so…God spoke, and it was so… God spoke, and it was so…” I let the repetition of these words sink into my being. What a powerful mystery! Then I listened carefully again and heard--“Out of chaos, order.” And “From emptiness to fullness.”  This remarkable transformation was perhaps a foreshadowing of how God works in our lives. What an incredible miracle! Also, I noticed long before the sixth day when God created Adam, he was speaking life—and it was good and he blessed it. What a gift! (Interesting, isn’t it, how much this story isn’t about people.)

It may be a huge leap, but when I’m outside and awake to God’s creation, I often sense my chaos becoming ordered. It’s not like a magic formula—walk and pray and everything will be okay. It’s more like the mysterious process of learning to lean into God’s sustaining presence—his presence in me and in all of his creation. Difficulties and problems still need my attention, but I’m somehow strengthened knowing God and his creation join me. I’m not alone—a miracle.

Another dimension of sharing my pain is the way creation somehow absorbs it.  Erazin Kohak catches some of what’s happening in my spirit when he said, “Godis teaching Job the wisdom of bearing the pain that can neither be avoided nor abolished but can be shared when there is a whole living creation to absorb it." Amen!  I am a practical person and ever ready to help, i.e., do something to fix problems. I’m learning “to do” isn’t always what God wants from me. So now I’m working on the “being present” part. And I think that is why I find myself asking God to help me absorb the pain of those I love. And like Job I’m learning how pain can somehow be shared by God’s living creation—a mystery, a miracle, a gift!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Pre-Post week 8--reflections on readings


Pre-Post week 8—respond to readings: (1) Steven Bouma-Prediger, Introduction and Chapters 2, 3, and 4 of For the Beauty of the Earth: A Christian Vision for Creation Care. (2) Also, become familiar with Bouma-Prediger on his faculty website. (3) Ernest Callenbach, Ecology: A Pocket Guide, Values
Values was listed last, but it needs to be first in my discussion. Callenbach's simple definition is helpful: Values are basic ideas that guide us in how we should behave. And he explains, "The environmental movement is fundamentally based not on economic or scientific arguments but on moral and aesthetic values about what is right, fitting, beautiful, or satisfying."  Problems emerge when folks don't know how to talk respectfully together about their different values. In fact, if they were able to listen and talk about these earth issues (or any devisive issues), they might discover that they aren't as far apart as they originally imagine. And speaking of imagining, views can be adjusted when folks see concrete consequences of their choices. 
I loved Callenbach's description of what embodied (incarnated) earth friendly values look like: folks invest in actitivies with meaning (money isn't the priority; folks consistantly practice the 3R's--recycle, reuse, reduce; folks eat healthy foods ( I loved this one--paying attention to taste and quality and sharing the joys of preparing them slowly and carefully!) New concepts were Slow Food Movement and Slow Life Movement--emphasizing local and simple--how wonderful:-) 

Three chapters were a lot to read and the material was dense.  I couldn't rush through it, and because I like to grow, I didn't rush. What follows are really my notes--lots of great quotes and some reflections.
In the introduction Bouna-Prediger plainly states his goal: “I mean in these pages not to inform but to persuade. My central claim is simple: authentic Christian faith includes care for the earth. Earthkeeping is integral to Christian discipleship.” He clarified his terms. The book isn’t about environment, nature, or even creation. He says, “This book is about the earth—the earth God created and continues to lovingly sustain and redeem…”

In chapter two he asks, “What’s wrong with the world?” The answer is a lot is wrong. This was painful reading because so much is obviously out of balance.

There are too many people and too many are hungry—1 in 8;

species extinction—we are losing 1 every 8 hours;

deforestation is rapidly increasing;

water—50% of the world doesn’t have adequate water—limited supply & poor quality;

land degradation—3 billion tons of top soil lost in U.S. each year due to wind and water erosion, other land problems desertification, sprawl;

waste—convoy of U.S. trucks would wrap around the planet 3.8 times;

energy—the U.S. uses 25% of world’s commercial energy because of our addiction to fossil fuels;

air—poor air quality related to over consumption of fossil fuels—increased acid rain and smog—hurting our lungs and killing our trees and fish

Climate—global warming is real, the question is how much and how fast

Bouma-Prediger informs me and almost overwhelms me with his persuasive barrage of painful realities, which I as a human, specifically a privileged American, helped cause.

In chapter three “Is Christianity to blame?” he begins by calling us to repentance by quoting James Nash, “Christianity has done too little to discourage and too much to encourage the exploitation of nature.” Then he repeats his premise—our faith calls for us to care for the earth. He spends considerable time deconstructing the all too easily accepted arguments that say Christianity is the problem. Perhaps the most often cited argument-- because the world will ultimately be destroyed, we shouldn’t feel bad about exploiting it. Using different translations he concludes the familiar text in 2 Peter 3 really means “that after a refiner’s fire of purification (v.7), the new earth will be found, not burned up.” And more to the point the rapture isn’t about leaving earth in escape mode, rather it is as N.T. Wright puts it, “…having gone out to meet their returning Lord, they (the saved believers) will escort him royally into his domain, that is, back to the place they have come from.”

Then he shifts--okay if foundationaly Christianity, i.e., correct biblical understanding, can't be "blamed" explicitly, then how has Christianity "contributed" to our present ecological problems. He starts by asserting, “…we Christians need to be (again) reminded that we have not always been good keepers of the earth. We need to begin (and end) with confession and repentance…Many of our beliefs, habits, and practices have in fact not served the earth but rather despoiled it (p71).”

REAL PROBLEMS—

Materialismboth economic and scientific. Success=material possession and economic productivity.

Denial of creation

(1) we no longer consider a living relationship with God essential because we have science and technology

(2) “Urban societies have undercut the ultimate knowledge of and sympathy for the earth…”—the earth is seen as a resource. We have lost our sense that we are connected to the gifts of the earth.

*(3) Particular technologies and mind-set have changed our attitudes and practices—experience the world through a technological grid or filter. Here I am thinking about the death of Steve Jobs—he is being extolled as a great man who gave us great gifts—all of which are technological. I have read over and over again how he lacked patience and was unkind to real people who didn’t agree with him.

(4) scorned, forgotten, or denies the interdependencies that are necessary for the flourishing of life

(5) growing irrelevance of God—we say God exists, but we don’t act like it. We accept the goals of our culture—The American Dream—house, cars, clothes, gadgets—without needing God. (except maybe as the genie in the bottle to grant the wishes).

The Church

(1) The church is captive to modern Western culture, which says God exists but isn’t intimately connected in any “meaningful way to the created order.”

(2) The church has accepted the “assumptions that humanity is at the center of purpose and meaning in the universe.”

(3) The church has bought into the Western culture view that makes technology a god. Technology has given us much good stuff, like this computer I’m typing on, but it isn’t always good—marketing new versions of new products with limited compatibility with things I’ve already got—like a Blu-ray for my DVDs. The question is what kind of technology, how much, for whom, and at what cost? Do we really need to endanger our fragile seas with more drilling?

(4) The church has forgotten creation. We tend to think of saving souls not creatures. Spirituality fits in certain spheres—accepted church activities. “…we tend to deny the full power of God’s grace.”

Maybe we could ask the same set of questions as in # 3—what kind of Christian faith do we need for the earth, how much, for whom, and at what cost? Umm..interesting rethinking

(5) The arrogant, inattentive and condescending attitudes toward other non-western Christian perspectives--What is needed is humility, which is where repentance fits once again.


Chapter four “What is the connection between scripture and ecology?”

--biblical wisdom and ecological vision


I liked reading the huge chunks of scriptures he used. I read them all out loud, and I think this helped me listen more deeply.

He uses focusing questions--

Where are we?

1) God is the Creator of all things.

2) God shares his power. Creation has the genuine ability to respond. We live in a responsive world.

3) Creation is cosmos. …the universe is a place of order and structure, purposefully and lovingly designed by God.

4) Creation is good. Peace is implied when the scripture says it is very good.

5) The earth is the home for all earthly creatures

6) The climax of creation is the Sabbath.—the celebration of a day of rest was the announcement of trust in God. It shows that life does not depend upon our feverish activity of self-securing…

...a pause in which life is given to us simply as a gift.


With whom does God make a covenant?--with the earth and all its creatures. An everlasting covenant. An unconditional covenant.

Very creative—first endangered species act—initiated by God and obediently carried out by Noah.


My favorite part was his reflection on Job.

Who is at the center of things?

1) Humans are not at the center. McKibben quote: “The first meaning, I think, of God’s speech to Job is that we are a part of the whole order of creation—simply a part.”

2) “man, who is only one of God’s creatures, is not the measure of all things and the sole test of the worth of creation.”

3) “Discerning identity and vocation have to do with shaping and remaking our moral imagination. This text asks of us, as of Job, extended and disciplined attentiveness. Before he is commanded to act, Job is asked to contemplate. Look, behold, appreciate—especially that which is wild, repugnant, dangerous. Conduct flows from character, doing from being, actions from basic attitudes. Cultivate these virtues—attentiveness, gratitude, humility—precisely the kind of habitual dispositions required of those called by God to care for the earth. (p. 97)

4) Moral order…an ethic of ecological hospitality and responsibility

5) …not only is the human decentered and properly among God’s creatures, but something of the character of the created world is revealed. The natural world displays order and patterned regularity. i.e., there is a moral order

6) Connect knowledge of the created order with the isolation and pain of suffering.

Quoting from Embers and Stars, Erazin Kohak writes, “God is not avoiding the issue. He is teaching Job the wisdom of bearing the pain that can neither be avoided nor abolished but can be shared when there is a whole living creation to absorb it." I’m reminded of Belden Lane’s camping trip. And of course, I’m reminded of so much of Mary Oliver’s experience of working through her grief in the poetry of Thirst. I also remember how Jean Vanier, the founder of l'Arche--a welcoming community for the developmentally impaired, took long morning walks before he began his caretaking duties.


Outside reading--

I just reread a chapter in Light through Darkness by John Chryssavagis. The chapter title shares an important focus of our class--"The Book of Nature: Theology, Ecology and Spirituality." Chryssavagis, who is the theological advisor to the Ecumenical Patriarch on environmental issues, writes from the Greek Orthodox perspective. He begins by discussing values. "Whenever we speak (whether about things in heaven or on earth), we are always drawing upon established values of ourselves and of our world. The technical language that we adopt, and even the particular 'species' that we wish to preserve, all depend on the values and the images that we promote, or rather presume. He, of course, emphasizes icons, or sacred images, as way to re-see things. "The icon reminds us of another way and reflects another world. It restores; it reconciles." He then explains, the "world is an icon, a door, a window, a point of entry, opening up to a new reality….And if the earth is an icon, if this world is an image that reflects the presence of God, then nothing whatsoever can be neutral, nothing at all lacks sacredness…The Christian is simply the one who discerns and encounters Christ everywhere."

He uses monologues by Father Zossima in Brother's K to illustrate our connectedness to the earth, our struggle for forgiveness for doing damage, and our need to embrace compassion by relating it to the cosmos. These speeches are amazingly beautiful and full of truth. Chryssavagis continues by saying, "This world is the most inconspicuous and silent sermon declaring the word of God…it is also the clearest, most visible and most tangible sermon declaring God's presence." And he adds, "Humanity, is less than humanity without the rest of creation. And Heaven is less than heaven without this world." After laying this foundation, he shifts "…this world does not always feel or even look like some sort of completion of heaven." Damage has been done, but there is a way out. He quotes St. Paul in his letter to the Colossians, "…God was pleased to reconciled to himself all things, whether on earth or in heaven, by making peace through the blood of his cross." Our cross needs to include self-denial,--we need to stop being so self-centered. I like how he pointed out that " a spirit of asceticism can lead to a spirit of gratitude and love, to the rediscovery of wonder and beauty in our relationship with the world…Discipline of the heart and the body is a way of relating to and reconciling with the world. His light touch drew me into accepting his premise—"The ascetic is the person who is free, uncontrolled by attitudes that abuse the world; uncompelled by ways that use the world; characterized by self-control, by self-restraint and the ability to say 'no' or 'enough'. Amen!

He suggests fasting as practice of self-denial, as an alternative to over consumption. Fasting would correct our wasting. Fasting would help us let go instead of strive to control. Also, fasting would give us more to share and promote healing of the scars we have left on our world. Chryssavagis concludes, "To fast, then, it to love; it is to see more clearly, to restore ...the original beauty of the world."

He says it is crucial that we "remember and confess--as individuals and as institutions--where we have come, where we are and where we are headed...The sacrament of confession is the process and privilege of recognising what we do and of reflecting on why we do it...It is assuming responsibility for our attitudes and actions, as well as for our inaction and perhaps indifference to action"...and this needs to "encompass the effects of our actions on the natural environment."

Confession leads to the imperative of connection/communion. We are all united by sharing the earth. We are interconnected in intregal and deep ways--breathing air, drinking water, walking on the land, although he stresses how we don't do these things equally or fairly. His suggested "correction may in fact begin with environmental inaction...in the discipline of silence, of vigilance and of detachment." But he doesn't stop here. He expands and adds a third imperative, "that of remembering compassion." His point--"The fact that someone 'has not' changes the character of my 'having'; it undercuts my security and drives me to share." Because our earth is damaged, I can demonstrate my care for it by using less, wanting less, and even needing less.

Three incarnate approaches for practical ministry of earth care--

1) Bibical Model--The church must stand with the weakest part of creation, the most vulnerable of creations, the helpless or voiceless--the groaning creation.

2) Ascetic Model--3 Rs Renunciation--learning to share; Repentance--confess that we do not share, that we are self-centered, that we abuse the goods of the earth; Responsibility--direct our lives in a manner that is at once reverent towards creation and Creator.

Note: Ascetic model is not a better way of action, but in reality a way of inaction, of silence and of vigilance.--


My note: This certainly seems too safe and easy, not costing much. Plus it allows others to continue damaging the earth unchallenged. But if I accept that this is one part of a whole response, then it seems incrediblly valuable. It is not an either or choice. All are called to pray, and some are called to challenge--in speaking, in writing, in protesting, in serving and even in making art. It seems that the most balanced and effective challenges would emerge from this thoughtful, spiritual "inaction, of silence and of vigilance."

3) Sacramental Model--not just ritual observances but ways of active engagement reconnecting us to God and the natural world, by drawing on its elements--water, bread, wine, oil, fire, light and darkness--room for creative reimagining.




Saturday, October 8, 2011

Post-Post week 7--Reflection on "Praying"

Post-Post week 7--
Choose some lines of poetry from any of the poems we've read so far in this class and write a spiritual, ecological meditation or reflection on them.
Praying
by Mary Oliver
It doesn't have to be
the blue iris, it could be
weeds in a vacant lot, or a few
small stones; just
pay attention, then patch
few words together and don't try
to make them elaborate, this isn't
a contest but the doorway
into thanks, and a silence in which
another voice may speak.
I want to do this--pay attention. I don't want to miss anything. Although, I think, it is somehow easy to see the big stuff--spectacular sunrises or sunsets, magnificent trees, amazing flowers. But maybe not. Georgia O'Keeffe painted a whole series of oversized flowers explaining, "I paint the flowers big so people will notice." (Part of her point was people weren't noticing, were they?) Two inexpensive framed prints of her flowers hang in our house, and I enjoy them immensely. It seems to me there's a good chance God likes Georgia's pictures, too. After all he was the first one involved--he imagined the scenes, he created them, and he blessed her with a gift to catch his vision. So dramatic bigness has a place, but it isn't everything. In fact, noticing the simple things may be what's most important because it connects me to God at work in the present moment, in the ordinary everydayness of my life. It's a valuable practice to see God in the often overlooked things like "weeds in a vacant lot, or a few small stones," or as I remember it loaves and fishes, an empty net, a full jar of water, and my favorite--the still small voice. Thankfully, there is no contest here, and, if there are winners, it's because of surrendering not striving. Daily I'm learning to slow down, pay attention, and be thankful for his presence and action in my life. This continues to be my prayer: that I may be open to His mercy and grace and to "silence in which another voice may speak."

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Pre-Post week 7--Responding to Hass, Snyder, Stafford


Pre-Post Week 7
Responding to the readings: "State of the Planet" by Robert Hass, excerpts from Writing the Australian Crawl by William Stafford and Danger on the Peaks by Gary Snyder
After the intense experience of Mary Oliver, I felt like I was carrying her with me into this new material. It was nice remembering a strong Christian perspective expressed in a warm, woman’s voice as I listened to these men.
“State of the Planet” by Robert Hass, who is now 70, was powerful poetry woven with painful scientific facts. I like how he used a schoolgirl as a real life connection to the litany of objective facts that hurt me to read and reflect on--
Topsoil: going fast. Rivers: dammed and fouled.
Cod: about fished out. Haddock: about fished out.
The book will tell her that the gleaming appliance
That kept her milk cold in the night required
Chlorofluorocarbons…
And it reacts with ozone. Where oxygen breeds it
From ultra-violet light, it burns a hole in the air.
His ending really gets my attention when he writes about dreams—“all of it/ a dream, and we live somewhere, somehow outside it/ Watching.” Here he seems to be using a dream as an unreal illusion—not able to be fully grasped. Then in his last few lines he switches the meaning of dream to be a vision or hope we need to have “…the earth needs a dream of restoration—“and he gives us that hopeful, beautiful hope—“She (the earth) dances and the birds just keep arriving, Thousands of them, immense arctic flocks, her teeming life.”  (Note: It was incredibly powerful when Paul read these lines aloud to a group of SEU students in the middle of a field trip to Circle B last year. In his introduction to that shared experience he pointed out how Circle B had been rescued from years of abuse, and the dramatic gift of restoration had resulted in the return of the birds—Wow! I hope we do the same poem when we visit there.)
Gary Snyder’s assorted prose and poetry excerpts from Danger on the Peaks were a delight to read and consider. I couldn’t help but smile when the intro bio said “…he has lived in the watershed...” What a great detail for us to recognize.
The first poem that stood out to me and made me smile was “How.” “…from bough/to bough to bough/ to bough to bough to bough” This is, of course, exactly how it is done, and in these few words I was with him.  His prose intros to his poems were an unexpected feature and a bit awkward to read, but I adjusted quickly. I have to admit my favorite part were the poems that looked and sounded like poems. I particularly liked “Cormorants.”  “Toes writing in water” (I actually saw this yesterday and so I got excited when he described it this way.) The ending was great “…(cormorants) talk about art, lecture the/clouds of tiny fish” Another wonderful poem was “The Great Bell of the Gion.” The ending seemed to celebrate deep listening which could mend our fragile hearts. Yes!

William Stafford’s Writing the Australian Crawl was filled with wit and wisdom about writing (and
life, which is how I think real wisdom works).  Wit: “A poem is a serious joke, a truth that has learned jujitsu.” “And if someone else says, ‘I don’t like that poem,’ you can say, ‘Well, it’s my life.  That poem was in the way, so I wrote it.”  Wisdom: The correct attitude to take about anything you write is “Welcome! Welcome!”  His whole attitude seemed so healthy and helpful, and I can hear Mary Olive agreeing. Remember how she reminded us that writing isn’t a completion—just patch the pieces together.   The title to that poem is “Praying.” And I am adding my own Amen!

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Post-Post week 6--Two original poems: Early Morning Walk and Walking in Starlight

Early Morning Walk


While you are still sleeping,

I leave my subdivision for my morning walk.

 “No Outlet” declares the yellow sign posted by the road,

so my only escape route is south,

then I turn west and follow the pasture fence line.



I’ve taken to picking up trash along the way

reciting a catchy rhyme I made up for the process—

This is for the birds and the bees and

The flowers and the trees and you-s and the me-s



As I turn north into the bordering neighborhood

a tiny poodle runs across wet grass barking his welcome

A strange voice calls him back

I know this house

a graceful egret—a work of art,

stands eternally feeding in the

shelter of the oak on the front lawn,

a cat often lolls lazily nearby

I suspect the dog is visiting



I walk mostly in the dark

lovely starlight and cricket music

traveling with me

keeping me company



But on the journey back

It is the eastern sky I notice 

like the light in our house

welcoming me home

 
Walking in Starlight
In the early morning hours
when it is still dark outside
I walk under your stars
that have been watching
over me for so long and
over my small neighborhood
where the wandering armadillo make holes in my yard
a few purple periwinkle thrive wildly beside the fence post
from some hiden spot a blooming gardenia shares her extravagant gift
an old cedar tree leans toward the outstretched hand of the young palmetto
the gentle cows rise from bended knees to greet me
while my difficult neighbor stirs restlessly in his sleep
--a man who takes joy is telling me not to travel his road
Light and love don’t recognize boundaries
So I pray blessing on the man who wants to protect the private space
I’ve learned I can watch and pray from the dark edges of night
As your stars do over and over and over