Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Pre-Post week 6--Mary Oliver--thirsting and drawing water

I am a Mary Oliver fan!  I think she is an amazing poet. I immensely enjoyed reading all the poems and Paul's essay and listening to Mary read some of her own work on video.  I have to confess that exploring her web site was a new and wonderful experience.  (Why I hadn't done that before is a mystery to me!)  Coleman Barks shared the stage with her on one video, and he asked the audience to feel sorry for him because his assignment was to ask her questions.  He said that was hard because he felt such assent to each line. (I'm with him on that point.)  He finally asked her if she really meant to ask such big questions in her poems. For instance, "What are you going to do?"  She immediately said yes, adding that she would like people to understand that sitting with big questions is necessary and valuable.  (I’m with her on this point.) I once went on a retreat with a leader who began our 8 days of silence with the question, “Who do you say Jesus is?”  He said not to feel like it was a Q&A test question. Rather, sit with it. Let it stir around in your heart.  This approach has certainly helped me immensely. God, I keep discovering, is in no hurry.  So Mary Oliver’s use of big questions delights me. (It has occurred to me that an interesting paper might be titled “The questions in Mary Oliver’s poetry.”) Of course, I also appreciate how she catches and defines  startling moments—her shoulders covered with snowy stars, the miracle of kindness shown by black ducks sheltering sanderlings, and even her own reflection about the times her body whispered that she had seen Jesus.  Mary Oliver, I think, has done a stunning job of letting the big questions stir her heart and mind, and we, eager readers of her poetry, are the beneficiaries of her long conversations with God.
It is not very difficult to see how Mary Oliver celebrates the wonders of creation in Thirst.  So I sincerely appreciate the connections Paul makes regarding the tension between God and Earth in her book Thirst.  The full circle he wrote about in his conclusion seems to show not only Mary’s growth in God but also to offer us a biblical pattern to follow--seeing “her on such a spiritual journey which leads through Earth to God and back to Earth.”  Because we notice and care about the earth, we pray; our prayerful, grace filled connections empower us to care more deeply.  The fruit is plain to see as she expresses wholeness in her poem from her book Red Bird.
“For truly the body needs / a song, a spirit, a soul. And no less, to make this work, / the soul has need of a body, / and I am both of the earth and I am of the inexplicable / beauty of heaven / where I fly so easily, so welcome, yes, / and this is why I have been sent, to teach this to your heart.”
Coming round one more time, rereading so much, I am blessed yet again because I never "get it all."  Every rereading helps me hear in new ways so that my heart can learn, so I can celebrate with those who say yes to the truth of her beautiful words, and so I can grow in my love of the silence, of the mystery, and learn as Mary has learned to be loved and to love more. Amen!

Monday, September 26, 2011

Post-Post week 5--My suburan ecosystem

Anna's Post-Post week 5--Write as thorough a description as you can of the ecosystem in some urban or suburban place that you are familiar with.  

This is a whopper of an assignment, and I’ve been stretched trying to write it.  Because I’m frustrated by my limited acquaintance with biology, I’ve decided to come at it sideways—connecting what I know of the story with parts of the definition given in our book, The Ecology Pocket Guide.  Ecosystem—a vast, interconnected web of species exchanging nutrients and recycling wastes. Ecosystems provide habitats to innumerable beings whom we can observe, as well as many microscopic subsurface ones.

Written about the pasture on Hallam Road in Lakeland, Florida (…where the sidewalk ends—literally.)

The old pasture in my neighborhood that I love, but know so little about, was once a working farm—Huntwood--or something like that, said 75 year old Janet Payne, who lived across the street from the pasture in the early 60s. Janet said the Hunt family provided natural food to folks in the community who wanted that kind of thing. This was about the same time a man named George Jenkins was giving our larger community the newest in grocery store conveniences: Publix, where shopping is a pleasure. At Huntwood people visited for simple reasons—saving money, purchasing freshness, and maybe because they found pleasure and value in connecting to something genuine. At any rate, Janet said lots of locally grown vegetables and meat were sold there. And she vividly remembers an old silo on the property.  When it became evident more folks wanted to purchase prepackaged goods, instead of pick through beans or pluck plump hens, the silo was creatively marketed as a place for stargazing. Imagine, starlight that oversaw the sleeping farm fed the curiosity of several of Janet's sons and a lot of it still journeys through space to keep me silent company on my morning walks.  I asked if she had a picture of the silo or farm--she didn't. But once she had painted two sturdy oak trees that shaded what she described as a wider road in 1960. My present subdivision, she said, was a wooded play land for her kids, but just around the corner were orange groves galore.

That’s the background story for context, and here is my connection to a bit more of the biology part—that vast, interconnected web of species exchanging nutrients and recycling wastes. I know farmers use fertilizer to grow food. I wonder if the fertilizer came from one of the local phosphate pits or were the Hunts able to mostly use what their animals produced naturally? Or was it some combination of both? At any rate, whatever they used did run off to some degree into the pond. Even though the farm is gone, the fertilizer run off continues if for no other reason than because the pasture is surrounded by beautiful green well fertilized lawns. In fact, this is reinforced by the little sticks with bent papers warning pets to keep off the “treated lawn.”  (This would be an okay idea—if pets could read!)

 Because it was a farm, I know the land had to be mostly clear of trees, but if my subdivision is any indication then once it was probably full of oaks and palmettos. Decaying matter from these trees and shrubs is probably filling the pond, consequently lowering the depth of the water, which would then make it easier for the water to evaporate in the Florida heat. Colorful lantana borders the fence in several places, and I think it's a pretty safe bet some of its ancestors grew nearby. We have tiny flocks of cattle egrets visit our backyard occasionally, and I imagine the pasture had its fair share of them over the years. What may have once been common for my neighborhood but has sadly disappeared is an eagle. Our family was delighted to watch our own local eagle soar over our quiet streets. My two youngest girls discovered its nearby nest, and when part of the pasture was sold about 10 years ago, the developer that mowed it down had to give a public account of his action. He insisted it was an unintentional error, which we didn't really believe, but it was no surprise that he was forgiven and now there are new homes in place of the eagle's.

Fascinating--farm animals lived in the pasture fifty years ago--particularly chickens but probably a few cows and some pigs. Of course there were lots of fresh veggies--green beans for sure and of course tomatoes, maybe squash and some gorgeous purple eggplants. Another older friend told me she thought the Hunts kept bees, too. If that was true, I bet they buzzed over to visit some of the neighboring orange groves. I wonder if the nectar was marketed as orange blossom honey, which, if you haven't tasted it, you should--amazing!

Not long ago on a morning walk I watched an armadillo wander from the pasture into a neighbor's backyard. The bold fellow scurried down the fence line toward me. What the armed beast didn't see was a rather large gray cat approaching across the front of the same house. When they met up, they both stopped still. The cat was curious but wary. The armadillo seemed mostly surprised, although I may have imagined it because his face remained expressionless. They paused briefly, but then the cat calmly padded a good distance toward me before heading on his way. The armadillo continued to briskly walk across another suburban yard before cutting back down between houses on his return trip to the pasture. I know some of the holes in my yard are probably made by the same armadillo, and I wonder if his distant relatives caused aggravation to the Hunts.

With farms come mice, so I bet another animal that we were shocked to see on our porch was a familiar resident on the farm; the small brown owl. This unexpected creature just showed up on our front porch one day. Wild animals, of course, don't just show up on porches, so I knew immediately something was wrong. But my little girls were charmed by its miniature presence and wanted to pet it. I stationed them a safe distance was the beautiful bird and called the wildlife phone number. I was told the bird was probably sick and would die soon. And yes, no petting allowed! The kind voice on the other end of the phone explained these petite birds feed on mole crickets, and when suburban lawns become infested with the damaging bugs, folks put out mole cricket poison. The poison kills the crickets, but unfortunately it often kills the owls that eat the then lethal crickets. After Rickey came home, we had a sad burial for the tiny little bird. Now, although the damage mole crickets are doing to our lawn disturbs me, I can't bring myself to buy any more mole cricket bait.

It’s funny, I think about the owl dying and I’m sad. But if I think about the cows dying I’m considerably less sad. They probably are raised to be dinner food, as were their distant cousins on the farm, but I don’t dwell on it.  I’m not a romantic; I understand and value the cycles of life.  Mostly I’m grateful for the gift of their presence. The way they lumber when they walk. The way they stare at me with their huge dark eyes. They seem to watch me with such patience and, it seems, such kindness. They are rarely in any hurry, and I appreciate their slowness—long looks and peaceful pace. Even their tails seem to swat without any hurry.  I’m smiling as I write. Yep, they are a gift.

The pasture I love, and now know a little more about, is a valuable ecosystem providing habitats to innumerable beings—some of whom I have observed.  Of course, it also contains many microscopic subsurface ones I know next to nothing about but still consider crucial.  And, you know, I’m still learning.

Pre-Post week 5--reflections on Pocket Guide and Alphabet of Trees

Anna's Pre-Post week 5--

Responding to the readings--Ecology: A Pocket Guide,
Selections from The Alphabet of Trees: A Guide to Nature Writing

There was immense variety is our assigned readings for this week. Although the essay by John Tallmadge “A Matter of Scale--Searching for Wildness in the City” was a normal essay, his focus stretched my preconceived ideas about wildness. I would say my thinking has been shifting for a while toward seeing “nature ‘right here,’ where we live.” But Tallmadge tells me that is not the same as seeing wildness.

I appreciate how he coaxed us to adjust the scale of our perceptions in space and time—“…step out my (he means his, but I like how it could be mine) back door in search of wildness.” And the Ansel Adams example was quite telling. This fits so well with the emphasis of this course--slow down to see, and see more deeply. The suggested exercises at the end of the essay are creative and could be quite useful.

Mary Oliver’s short piece, “Pen and Paper and a Breath of Air”, was useful in a practical way-–“…record various facts…birds in the spring (like Leopold), addresses, quotes, things people say, shopping lists, recipes, thoughts.” But reading her reflection about the process added a depth of meaning that is missing from just the suggestion of using a notebook. I particularly liked her explanation—“Both the shorthand and the written phrase are intended to return me to the moment and place of the entry…back to the felt experience…It is the instant I try to catch in the notebooks, not the comment, not the thought. And, of course, this is so often what I am aiming to do in the finished poems themselves.” And of course she does it brilliantly!

Birds in the City—A Field Sketchbook was unusual and great fun. The pictures and short descriptions certainly caught my interest. I have seen birds nesting in strange places in the city, too, but the guy’s pants had to be the most unique location of all.

After checking out the sketchbook, I felt completely ready for Sarah J. Rabkin’s essay, “A Great Excuse to Stare—Seeing through the Eyes of a Gifted Drawing Teacher.” Rabkin writes about the parallels between writing and drawing. She based her reflection on her 10 year friendship with artist teacher Jenny Keller. The two friends have co-taught and sat in on each other’s classes. It works Rabkin says because “…we share essentially the same set of attitudes. It is a spiritual stance: a deep admiration for the threatened integrity of land, air, water, and living things, and a desire to help our students cultivate their own passionate relationships with this world.” ( Wow, the same could be said for this course!) And Rabkin does a fine job describing the parallels—“In writing as in drawing, it’s the heart’s resonance with a subject that leads to satisfaction and a sense of vitality in the act of creation.” I personally have never felt like I could draw, so I really liked how Jenny the art teacher says drawing is a “learnable skill.” And I think we can use Paul’s pictures of drawing the bottle he found in Lake Holloway as a successful example of the process Jenny leads her students through. Jenny’s students can do it, Paul can do it, we can do itJ Her admonition to her students doing blind contour drawing is quite helpful—“Usually what stalls us in drawing is getting critical…What does matter is the process: learning to move your eyes and hand at the same slow pace.” She also writes about the value of play—“It’s easier to let go when the assignment feels more like play than work.” I want to take the pressure off—let’s play J

But I totally dropped all ideas of play when I picked up Ernest Callenbach’s Ecology, A Pocket Guide .I have admit every time I read it I learn a ton of new facts, and, of course I’m challenged by his sobering commentary.

To begin with his startling facts about air have me very worried. I already knew we had problems with chlorofluorocarbons, but I had no idea that “…a compound 30 to 60 times more damaging to the ozone layer than chlorofluorocarbons, highly toxic methyl bromide, is widely used in the United States and elsewhere to fumigate timber and also soil for strawberries, flowers, grapes, and almonds. Its phasing out has been repeatedly prolonged.” Ugh!

Algae are good, except when they “bloom” in vast quantities and harm fish and infect oysters.” The good news is “they can already be used to extract carbon dioxide from power plant emissions.” I had no idea, and maybe there is hope they can be used for biodiesel fuel.

When I think of germs, I think of Bacteria, (I should get credit for knowing about the good bacteria in yogurt.) but I learned new stuff “…most bacteria are either neutral or beneficial to humans.” And “…these subvisible beings are the most diverse and fundamental life forms on Earth, and they play a part in every ecological interconnection.” Impressive!

Today’s snack celebrates fungi. The rolls are made with yeast (one-celled fungi) and cheese. (They also have fresh rosemary I picked on Monday night from my friend’s bush—knowing I would chop it up and stir it into the bread I was planning on making for you.) Maybe this is uncomfortable information at this point, but “Subvisible though most fungi may be, they are indispensable experts in planetary waste management; without them, life on Earth would be impossible.”  But so ymmuy in whole wheat rosemary cheese rolls!

Monday, September 19, 2011

Post-Post week 4--photos with reflections


Post-Post week 4--
Take a set of nature photographs. Take as many as you can. Post selected ones with brief captions and a brief introduction to explain the context of your photo shoot (where you went, what you experienced, how many photos you took, how you are pleased with the results, and so forth).

My favorite part of the assignment was walking and enjoying being present to the cool, early morning air beginning to fill with light and the songs of waking birds. But I also was excited about the idea of trying out some of Chad's suggestions for taking my pictures—use odd angles, focus on close-ups with receding backgrounds, apply the rule of thirds, etc.

The cows I love weren't around for their photo op, so I took some funny pictures of mushrooms, and a couple of odd ones of flowers near a wire fence.





Mushrooms in the grass. I got down on my knees to take this photo. I knew I was choosing an odd angle while also trying to use the rule of thirds with the more interesting main subject in the front corner.














I noticed the flowers, the fence, the fog…and the missing cows







I tried to capture what I thought was a telling photo of too much algae covering the pond, but it just looked like regular water. (So much for photo journalism truth telling.)












But maybe there is way to get at another important truth. This morning I popped the whole set of photos into the computer to see what I got, and although it was full light when I was photographing, too many of my pictures came out looking dark. But maybe dark fits best, because this morning's front page story is about budget cuts for the disabled, and I'm feeling the dark creeping up on me. I say this because photographing this pond brings back the memory of the day my severely autistic five year old went swimming here. That was a hard day for many reasons, (the short version of the story is she was rescued), but this morning the memory of that ache and future concerns for Catherine are reflected in the dark edges of my photos.

Overall, I loved the activity, and I look forward to experimenting with a photo-walk another day. I think taking lots of photos I know I won't use is very freeing--it takes the pressure off of "getting it right". It is a bit like the writing process where I often write lots of extra words for an assignment. Later, I go back and pick and choose the best stuff. Hurray for process!

Pre-Post week 4--Last look at Sand County Almanac


Pre-Post for week 4--
Respond to the readings in The Sand County Almanac "August" - "December," "The Marshland Elegy,” and "The Land Ethic."
First off, I'm sad to be finished with the book. It was a wonderful experience discovering so much about Sand County, Wisconsin. A significant amount of what I read was new information, but it was special to discover that we do have Sandhill Cranes in common: Neat! I'm with Paul in saying that the pictures added so much to the text. This essay book with photos has got to be the definitive edition of this book. I honestly can't imagine reading Aldo's lively descriptions without being able to see the extraordinary photos.
The focus of the "The Marshland Elegy" was, of course, the increasing disappearance of the sandhill crane.  And perhaps just as importantly, the disappearance of habitat for the crane and other wildlife that call the marsh home. Leopold deftly describes our society's problematic thinking when he writes, “To build a road is so much simpler than to think of what the country really needs.” And when he laments that “Solitude…is so far recognized as valuable only by ornithologists and cranes,” I’m about ready to cry.
If the “Marshland Elegy” was painful reading (and it was), then “The Land Ethic” was gut wrenching. He clearly identifies where we have come from—“Individual thinkers …have asserted that the despoliation of land is not only inexpedient but wrong. Society, however, has not yet affirmed their belief.”  In spite of his assertion that “…the individual is a member of a community of interdependent parts,” he says we are too slow to get that “…the boundaries of the community include soils, waters, plants, and animals…the land.”  The part that breaks my heart most is that the people of God have missed that crucial connection. Our common cultural obsession with ease and self-indulgence blurred our vision and clogged our ears. We've all bought into progress--progress without counting the cost.
Leopold’s ending was too gentle and kind, and although I’m no fan of harshness (i.e., ought, should, and must), I ache that he did not ask more of us. He, of course, was living and writing in the late 1940’s, and there is no way Leopold could foresee how far we would miss the mark and how much worse we would do.  “Our problem,” he concluded, “is one of attitudes and implements…we are in need of gentler and more objective criteria for its (the shovel) successful use.”  Indeed, if only he had been listened to in significant and real ways back then.  Now, woe to us—mountain tops are gone.  Woe to us—marshes and glades are drained.  Woe to us--for not heeding truth written down in 1948 by a wise man in Sand County, Wisconsin.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Post-Post week 3--Walking and celebrating

Post-Post for week 3

I went on an early walk this morning with this assignment in mind: “…along the lines of the brief essays that make up the chapters of A Sand County Almanac, write a description of and reflection on some natural object, event, process, or relationship.”

I walk often, although I’ve put it off for about two weeks because I hurt my right foot tripping over a curved chair leg, sticking out like a giant comma. (Obviously, I missed my cue to slow down and pause.)   Well, I’ve missed my regular morning walks--the way they help me start my day with quietness and confidence, strengthening me with every step.  I’ve missed seeing the way the sky looks when it’s still dark and dotted with starry colons and periods and a capital O of a glowing moon. Or at first light when a growing grayness creeps slowly across the papery horizon defining the familiar landscape of trees, houses, and an old pasture where I frequently experience the cows rising stiffly to greet me. And I bow, smile and tell them good morning in return. And I've missed seeing when the sun is rising and clouds are strewn haphazardly in ever changing purples and reds. This morning the sky was one of those skies--an artist's messy palate that's somehow beautiful before a single stroke meets a waiting canvas. Later I expect the clear definition of white, puffy balls of vapor filling an endless blue space punctuated with a powerful yellow period, declaring God is in his haven and everything I’m getting ready to face—the anxiety of traveling in traffic, meeting deadlines, paying bills, and washing dirty laundry—everything will be manageable.  I’m celebrating my walk today, and I’m happy to know I’ll be back treading the neighborhood again tomorrow because my foot isn’t hurting too much.  I must be healing—hurray!

Pre-Post week 3--Responding to parts of Sand County Almanac

Pre-Post for week 3
Respond to the readings in The Sand County Almanac, Leopold bio in Wekipedia, and the essay “Thinking like a Mountain”

The pictures in Sand County Almanac added significantly to Leopold’s essays. I’m thinking of Draba, the glowing fireplace inside the shack, and the compass flower, just to name a few. My response is Wow and Wow again!

But their beauty and evocative nature served me in an unexpected way this past weekend. I had the book with me on my trip to visit family in Niceville, Florida. I was reading it early on Monday morning when a tornado siren went off and woke Rickey’s mom. She is 88 years-old and suffers from dementia. She came to the table shaken up by the loud thunder, heavy rain and continued screaming of the siren. After I fed her, I sat beside her and opened my Sand County Almanac. Together we looked at the pictures and talked about them. She told me stories about places she remembered that were full of flowers and trees. The pictures and storytelling worked to connect her to strong memories, and she was significantly more peaceful as we focused on turning the pages to see what was next. Wow and wow again!

To get back to the book--I was particularly struck by the long February essay. I enjoyed the history--good things and bad—recorded as he and sawyers cut through the old oak. And the refrain was especially effective. “Rest! Cries the chief sawyer, and we pause for breath.” I, too, needed to pause for breath so I could have time to absorb and reflect on the list. (Thanks for letting me put together Leopold's words for a choral reading of his essay "February"--I think it worked well to hear everyone's voices.)

In “Thinking like a Mountain,” Leopold does a fine job of helping us understand the consequences of interrupting the cycle of life for our own misguided purposes.  I appreciated his admission of guilt by accepting and participating in the killing of the wolf.  I thought it telling that when he got up close and could look at the light fading from his victim’s eyes, he felt differently. 

After reading his bio in Wikipedia, I understand how much he was able to think through the accepted views of nature at his time and present a healthier (holier) view--care and preservation of wilderness. Given the stunning eloquence of The Sand County Almanac, I can't help thinking he would have written other impressive books if he hadn't died fighting a fire at 61 years old. But it made me smile to discover all his biological children shared his love of nature and our environment, even becoming contributors as teachers and researchers.

Post-Post week 2--What about my water, waste, and electricity?

Post-Post for week 2--class on August 31

What about my water, waste and electricity?

I have now lived in Polk County for over 24 years, and because I care and read the newspaper, I am aware of the discussions about people and issues regarding water and electricity. For instance, I know that a smart, Hispanic woman was the director of the Lakeland landfill on Winter Lake Road.  She made history by being the first woman in that position, and she was multitalented--she literally drove one of the tractors as well as developed new policies and procedures to make the whole process of managing trash more efficient. I was personally acquainted with two Lakeland Electric executives, (in both cases my kids were friends with their kids.) I liked one as a person, not as a policy maker. I liked the other for his creative problem solving, but he lacked people skills. And my electricity comes from the McIntosh plant on Lake Parker. Our whole neighborhood receives water from the water treatment plant on Hwy 37 B, and we all have septic tanks in our backyards.
Testing for water quality
I drove 420 miles to Niceville, Florida for Labor Day weekend. Because Tropical Storm Lee was churning away in the nearby Gulf of Mexico, we had a wet, windy weekend. Saturday, between bands of rain, I invited my adventurous brother-in-law to help me test the water quality in Shirk's bayou, which laps the dock in Joe's backyard. Joe read the booklet and checked out the kit while we had coffee and homemade bread. So he was ready to go when the rain gave us a break. We spent a total of 25 minutes checking the water, including my hike back up to the house for the camera. (I took a couple of pictures of Joe, and he took one or two of me :-) A small collection of tiny fish nibbled on me as I waded in the warm water. I don't know what they were, but because they were living fish (and nibbles don't hurt) I was secretly happy!

I have officially registered at www.WorldWaterMonitoringDay.org and I'll be recording our findings:

Date: Saturday, Sept. 3, 2011

Location: Shirk's Bayou in Niceville, Florida (latitude=30.4916 longitude=86.4674)

Specifically, Joe and Susan's backyard

Air Temp: 80 f

Turbidity: 10-15

Water Temp: 28 c

DO: 51



pH: 7


When we returned to the dry house, Joe was able to Skype his mom and dad and give them a report on the water quality. We wished for higher dissolved oxygen content, but we were pretty pleased with the pH and the turbidity. The plan was to visit our favorite creek and check out the water there, but the constant rain discouraged us from following through. I'm sad to miss measuring Turkey Creek water, but there is always our next visit--Thanksgiving :-)